Kassidi Henson, Conflicted . . .

As authors, sometimes we struggle with what to write, and exactly how to write it. Sometimes that struggle is in trying to do what others want us to do, versus what we want to do. When that starts to happen, whether we know it or not (and I’m just figuring it out), we’re putting a dent in our creativity. Organically, is the way our pen is supposed to move. Move against the beat of our hearts, because it’s from that place that our words come from. When there’s conflict, a tug-of-war ensuing, then it’s not natural.

I’ve been there.

A lot of readers like for life to go a certain way—all the time. Going outside of what they deem to be the norm, is like culture shock. More times than not, they expect us to be in line with that. Stay in our place, so to speak. Stay doing what they’ve come to know us for; not realizing that we have to evolve every day that we’re on our journey, or we’ve learned nothing. Yes, we want for our readers to showing undying love and appreciation for the work we put out. But that won’t always be. And we have to be willing to take that risk, make that sacrifice. Why? Because life is about taking risks, and life is about making sacrifices. Not to mention the extremely obvious–we will never be able to please everyone–sometimes to the point of disappointing those who love us, admire us. It’s life. There will be times . . . a lot of them . . . where we have to manipulate characters in a way that won’t be so popular.

In my case, there’s not too much of what I write that doesn’t derive from my real life. That’s just being honest. Nikki Giovanni doesn’t think so. While I do write from a place of empathy, that empathy comes from having seen what I saw, lived what I lived and trying to find a creative way to put it, without being too transparent.

With all of that said, I want to delve into Kassidi Henson, my newest heroine. Out that gate, I’m going to let you know that she may not be everybody’s cup of tea, but I’ll also say that there are more than a few women who can relate to her—whether they’d like to admit or not. For whatever reason, a lot of us begin to feel unworthy at a certain point if we aren’t in a relationship, have a child, or are married. We begin to allow pressures from everywhere dictate how we view ourselves. Less-than, old, or whatever thoughts may creep in. During those times we can enter into situations that may not necessarily, be meant for us.

That happened with Kassidi. There was nothing outwardly wrong with the man that chose her—except that he chose her. She did not choose him. After that choice was made, Kassidi fell in line with it, because she was somebody’s woman, finally. Situationships had been her been her ‘situation’. Yet, all her girlfriends were married, and some with at least one child. So, yeah, she fell in line–earning a ring out of the deal, in the process. But was it really what she wanted?

It didn’t appear to be so. Constant fights . . . some big, and some not so big. Over-embellished attitudes about the small stuff, was just some of what occurred in this relationship. A relationships that wasn’t quite fully baked. But Kassidi didn’t see the signs because she was too busy seeing the ring and the altar that came as part of the package deal. However, what she couldn’t see for herself, was revealed for her on her girls’ trip to Vegas.

It wasn’t so much the man, it was the act that got her caught up. It had nothing to do with him being sexy. It had nothing to do with him being able to dance his ass off. It had everything to do with her not being ready to be a bride.

Dive into the story to see for yourself.

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